Summer-Fall '23
It's Cold in Here
Travis Flatt
I’m twenty-eight. In the middle of the night, unprecedented, I suffer a seizure. I contract adult onset epilepsy like food poisoning. During my spectacular, public seizures––and they create dramatic scenes––I find the attention exhilarating.
I’m thirty-four. My first wife tells me she’s having an affair. I’m giddy, thinking, “Everyone’s going to blame you.” I tell her to get out. I’m keeping the dog. Goddamn, I’m excited.
I’m forty, at home waiting for mom to die, excited. I love(d) my mother dearly. I call(ed) her everyday. They told us at the hospital that if her vitals crash they’ll inject morphine and let her fade away.
There’s probably a name for this exhilaration that only exists in German.
When someone weeps over loss, it strikes me as theater.
If I tell anyone I’m scared, I resent them.
It’s cold in here. I’d ask for help, but I don’t want it.
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Travis Flatt is a teacher and actor living in Cookeville, Tennessee. His stories appear in Heavy Feather Review, HAD, JMWW, and elsewhere. He enjoys theater, dogs, and theatrical dogs.