Winter '24
AYLLI CORTEZ
A long time not never. Healing
is
precarious. Place the wound
on a lower shelf. Along the far wall.
Anywhere is good as long as
it can breathe.
It will be a living one
in a long list of deaths. In a long line
of long-haired old ones, a last one.
Like nerves in the lungs. How long
you can stretch them outside the body
and lie before longing
not to.
Before piecing the room together.
Waiting in the long hours from dust
to dawn. From ash to long arms
and the smoke that comes
too quickly,
longingly in the morning
when
the bed is empty.
When my mother cuts my hair, she holds my life
in her hands. Cradles it as she lifts the scissors
to my temple and snips close to the skin. This is
the dream where I cannot lie. Where I greet her
touch with no resistance.
She asks me to straighten my back
and I do. To raise my chin and I can. The hairs fall
away like bits of paper from a snowflake
a child makes. Is proud of. What’s left has become
art by virtue of having been made.
In the mirror, my reflection is material.
Everything else is light.
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Aylli Cortez (he/they) is a transmasc Filipino poet studying creative writing and theatrical performance at Ateneo de Manila University. His collage art and poems have appeared in HEIGHTS Ateneo. He is based in Metro Manila, Philippines. Find him on X and Instagram @1159cowboy.